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Resisting the inner voice?

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It is hard to believe that 2017 is almost over and it seems like it has been a year of whirlwind changes and experiences.

Over the spring I was working at trying to define and re-brand my business and kept meeting with a lot of internal resistance to doing so. About the time that I finally & reluctantly gave in to accept some of the changes that had been proposed - my world came to a crashing halt.

The fires of 2017 in the cariboo region of BC sent us (me & all my critters) into evacuation. We ended up back on the lower mainland because I had family to stay with, and a large stable was offered to board my horses and chickens at. We were safe. I will only say that the entire experience of having to evacuate my animals in the dark of night, travelling through the only open 'escape' route available to the entire town of 100 Mile House and an all night drive through smoke so thick it was at times hard to even see the road ahead - is not an experience I EVER want to go thro…

Happy- ness?

So much has recently been floating around the Internet in meme's and posts about happiness. Find your happiness, happiness equals success etc,etc, etc. 
So what is happy-ness?
How do you find it, where do you find it, what is it?

 The Miriam-Webster dictionary describes happiness: the state of being happy

In our society today there seems to be a disconnect around what happiness is and what it means. So many people seem to believe that it means you must be deliriously smiling and sunshine & roses ALL. THE. TIME.

Others seem to believe that it is something they only see on tv or the movies. 
That it is something everybody else experiences. 
believe that the more they buy, drink, eat, smoke or exercise they will find it.

Quite often when we substitute substances or things, we are running from the deepest truth inside: none of us feels like we are happy enough, successful enough, worthy enough of being happy. So we hide from ourselves, lie to ourselves, bury our feelings and wish for the …

Why do I believe so strongly in what I do?

Because I know that the therapies I am certified in work.  I know this because I too have struggled with health, weight, confidence, stress, self-esteem and PTSD. I’ve been bullied, teased, tormented and underestimated since childhood. I’ve felt that I was never good enough, smart enough, strong enough. I’ve been the square peg trying to fit into the round hole all my life. I’ve suffered through cancer surgery and treatment and side-effects from medication even worse than what it was supposed to help with.
Then I found the healing arts: Reiki, Clinical Hypnotherapy & somatic exercises. And I finally felt that I had discovered something amazing & was drawn to putting them all in to practice. I now combine these therapies with the healing energy of animals all in a natural environment.
I’ve studied, I’ve practiced, I’ve come out of living in fear and anger, of constantly apologizing for being me. I live in gratitude for every precious moment and it isn’t an ooey-gooey, new age t…

A few words on a personal note

My journey back to health has been interesting and diversified. 
Just about four years ago I went through breast reconstruction  in Vancouver. Six months after the reconstruction I underwent the first of what would be three breast reduction surgeries. I was also being followed by the hematology clinic in Vancouver, to keep an eye on what had become my new normal in very low platelets and blood counts. Several appointments and tests later, I was told that I now had a condition that would eventually lead to the need of a bone marrow transplant. I'd be very susceptible to infections and bla bla bla. 
Everything in me screamed "NO!" After all the surgeries and medications and complications I had endured during my battle with cancer, I was bound and determined that there was no way I was going to be sick or succumb to anything else. I'd been called a warrior, a trooper and a hero all throughout my varied treatments and knew at some deep level that my body just needed to r…

The Continuous Journey

As part of my own journey to be the best version of myself I can be - I face the same challenges that many of my clients face. Although I have done a lot of my own self work - and encourage my clients to do the same,  I too often forget that life is a continuous journey. I get caught up in the same vortex of "I'm not ready," " I' need to do/learn more" and even the classic,"I'm not good enough" as most of you do.
I tend to forge that like most people on this amazing journey, I too have many layers of  "shiz"(my teenage niece's favorite word for shit) to get through. Sometimes, things that I thought I had cleared away a few years ago - have revisited me in another way.., just to give me the kick in the pants that I need to actually do something to move forward.

Recently I was challenged by my mentor & guru to take some time to reflect upon and the write down all the things that have changed for me in the last 2 years. The exe…

Resistance Is Futile!

Yes I did say that!

We are all such creatures of habit that any appearance of change in our lives promotes an immediate and visceral gut feeling of NO! And we resist. And resist, and resist, until finally we are forced to accept whatever change happens. Whether it is a job loss or transfer, the breakdown of a relationship or even just finding a sign of aging - CHANGE is inevitable.

In my line of work, people often call and ask about the therapies I offer and some will actually come for a session. Some will say it was awesome and some I never hear from again. Or I hear that it didn't work.

News flash folks - to affect change in your life you MUST BE WILLING to change. You must be willing to accept that CHANGE is a natural progression.

Sometimes changes happen in our lives that make the inner child jump up and down and scream or cry, "I don't wanna!"  And I can admit, without shame, that my inner child has ranted & railed on more than one occasion in my life. And i…

Autumn reflections

In all honesty, as I spend more and more time outdoors with my animals, doing daily cleanup chores and generally getting things ready for winter, I find myself doing a lot of reflecting.

I never quite understood why my horsey friends used to say they loved spending time cleaning up their pens. After having our two beautiful boys join us about six months ago, I find the lure of being around them very soothing. I can be out in the paddock in the lousiest of weather and find I can smile at whatever they may be doing.

Neither boy is too fond of the hose being turned on to fill the trough and don't like to be bothered when eating. While I push the wheelbarrow around to collect their manure, one or both will come up to investigate and have a 'cuddle'. Floyd, our big paint gelding tends to be the more curious of the two and will quite often come up and snuffle me, nibble at my jacket sleeve or will just hang his head over my shoulder to have his chin and throat stroked. Quite of…